"The youngest child in any family is always a jokemaker, because a joke is the only way he can enter into an adult conversation."
— Kurt Vonnegut, A Man Without a Country
Is it pathetic if I pretended she was saying all of these about me?
Do you ever think about all of the really nice drunk girls you’ve met in bathrooms and wonder how they are doing? I miss you all
[Advice to someone specific or for you if it helps.]
I remember one night I was home alone watching Beginners and ugly crying. I thought I would never find someone that I would love and would love me back. Maybe really the feeling I had was that they would love me and I would have a hard time loving them back.
I have a boyfriend now that I love, but it took years and some relationships, some tough breakups (even with my boyfriend now), some real awkward dates, some terrible and some amazing hookups. Maybe that’s not what you want to hear. We’ve been together for 2 years now. I don’t know, I feel like I am terrible with advice sometimes, and I don’t want to be all ‘it gets better’ cause sometimes it just doesn’t for some people. I have a feeling though that you want it to and it probably will. Maybe this relationship or boy you love is right for you or maybe he/it’s not.
Your feelings are all ok though. I think everyone wants to feel loved, they want someone to be there when they get home, someone they love and loves them back. Sometimes you have to be the person that hugs you and tell yourself it will be ok until the time comes when someone naturally does it for you.
This is just something I needed to read right now on a little bit of the lonely side of 23 in a city where I don’t know a lot of people and feel little bit disconnected.